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1/5/2009 My grandparents,My 20082008 has forever gone... I wanna remember it Cauze I have been through lots of things in 2008 The most improtrant incident was that my dear grandpa left us for the heaven during the spring festival of 2008 I would never foget the day he passed away and the days after he passed away I dreamed of my grandpa a lot this whole year The dream was all about my grandpa had not left us yet,he had still lived happily and healthily with us Even till now,I still remember the funny faces he made for me just several days before he died So vivid and impressive...It was just like something that happend yesterday... I couldn't believe that he was actually gone forever... Deep in my mind,I thought that everytime when I went home, my grandpa would always be somewhere in the house waiting for me.This was going to last forever. He would never leave. And I could call him "grandpa" out loud, talked with him and couldn't help but touch his rough beard In some aspects,My grandpa was a self-centered and direct person He said what he had on his mind,never thought that words were needed to be decorated If he thought you were fat,he would definitely say"you are really fat" Sentences like"you are not that fat";"you are not that ugly" would never be heard from him He didn't mean to hurt anybody He thought that it was right and good to tell others what you really had on your mind And he was very proud of that But in my opinion,maybe that was just some common feature of all the old people He was just like a child So sometimes I wouldn't take his words,to be more accurate,some unlovely judgement seriously...hehe... Maybe because of my Ah Q Spirit, I could get along with my grandpa really well He kept telling me that I was the person that cared about him the most... And I really did,I really liked him and grandma a lot I want to make them happy,make them laugh all the time, to be the one they are proud of... But now when I come back home, only one lonely shadow would wait for me sadly My grandma needs my grandpa much more than me She is missing him as well as hating him She misses him,cauze he used to be the one that accompanied her for almost her whole life She got married to him when she was just 16 Together,they had gone through a lot of things, things that I would never know and understand For a 70-year long time,she woke up to see him lying beside her every morning, feeling safe and happy... For a 70-year long time,she cooked for him,washed dishes and clothes for him every day, taking really good care of him... For a 70-year long time,she only got him to trust,he was the one in her life... He was all she had and needed But he left so fast and quietly She hates him..."why are you so cruelhearted,why not talk to me before going there?" She hates him bacause she still loves him deeply Her feeling is still very complicated till now... She thinks of him every day, sitting on the chair he used to sit,crying silently But she refuses to see his photos,not even once and one glance I still remembered that one day, I brought some photos that we took during the 2008 spring festival when my grandpa was still alive back home and gave them to my grandma She throwed them away as soon as she saw grandpa's face and seemed very angry... I was scared at that very moment and just couldn't understand why she did that... Since grandpa died,my grandma no longer sees us off before the front gate She prefers to stay in the house now Maybe she can't stand anybody that matters to her leaving her anymore,even though it is not forever... Or standing outside and seeing us off will make her think of my grandpa again Before 2008, there were always two persons standing in front of the house,seeing us off,hugging us goodbye when we were leaving hometown for school and work They were my dear grandparents I never thought that this would end... Until my grandpa passed away... Now I know the meaning of "People always leave" Before the front gate of my home the trees still grow the wind still blows only something is different ever after... TrackbacksWeblogs that reference this entry
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