丽斯's profileLazy Gannbatte!PhotosBlogListsMore  |  Tools Help |
|
|
1/5/2009 My grandparents,My 20082008 has forever gone... I wanna remember it Cauze I have been through lots of things in 2008 The most improtrant incident was that my dear grandpa left us for the heaven during the spring festival of 2008 I would never foget the day he passed away and the days after he passed away I dreamed of my grandpa a lot this whole year The dream was all about my grandpa had not left us yet,he had still lived happily and healthily with us Even till now,I still remember the funny faces he made for me just several days before he died So vivid and impressive...It was just like something that happend yesterday... I couldn't believe that he was actually gone forever... Deep in my mind,I thought that everytime when I went home, my grandpa would always be somewhere in the house waiting for me.This was going to last forever. He would never leave. And I could call him "grandpa" out loud, talked with him and couldn't help but touch his rough beard In some aspects,My grandpa was a self-centered and direct person He said what he had on his mind,never thought that words were needed to be decorated If he thought you were fat,he would definitely say"you are really fat" Sentences like"you are not that fat";"you are not that ugly" would never be heard from him He didn't mean to hurt anybody He thought that it was right and good to tell others what you really had on your mind And he was very proud of that But in my opinion,maybe that was just some common feature of all the old people He was just like a child So sometimes I wouldn't take his words,to be more accurate,some unlovely judgement seriously...hehe... Maybe because of my Ah Q Spirit, I could get along with my grandpa really well He kept telling me that I was the person that cared about him the most... And I really did,I really liked him and grandma a lot I want to make them happy,make them laugh all the time, to be the one they are proud of... But now when I come back home, only one lonely shadow would wait for me sadly My grandma needs my grandpa much more than me She is missing him as well as hating him She misses him,cauze he used to be the one that accompanied her for almost her whole life She got married to him when she was just 16 Together,they had gone through a lot of things, things that I would never know and understand For a 70-year long time,she woke up to see him lying beside her every morning, feeling safe and happy... For a 70-year long time,she cooked for him,washed dishes and clothes for him every day, taking really good care of him... For a 70-year long time,she only got him to trust,he was the one in her life... He was all she had and needed But he left so fast and quietly She hates him..."why are you so cruelhearted,why not talk to me before going there?" She hates him bacause she still loves him deeply Her feeling is still very complicated till now... She thinks of him every day, sitting on the chair he used to sit,crying silently But she refuses to see his photos,not even once and one glance I still remembered that one day, I brought some photos that we took during the 2008 spring festival when my grandpa was still alive back home and gave them to my grandma She throwed them away as soon as she saw grandpa's face and seemed very angry... I was scared at that very moment and just couldn't understand why she did that... Since grandpa died,my grandma no longer sees us off before the front gate She prefers to stay in the house now Maybe she can't stand anybody that matters to her leaving her anymore,even though it is not forever... Or standing outside and seeing us off will make her think of my grandpa again Before 2008, there were always two persons standing in front of the house,seeing us off,hugging us goodbye when we were leaving hometown for school and work They were my dear grandparents I never thought that this would end... Until my grandpa passed away... Now I know the meaning of "People always leave" Before the front gate of my home the trees still grow the wind still blows only something is different ever after... 6/16/2008 父亲节,我和爸爸的短信对话六月第三个星期天是父亲节
尽管前一晚已经跟爸爸视频祝福过了 但是还是觉得有必要给他发一条窝心的短信 就像母亲节给妈妈发的那条一样，呵呵。。。 所以就编辑了一条自以为很感人肺腑的短信发给他 但没想到，当初我想象的感人对话竟偏离了轨道 演化成了搞笑可爱的父女对话。。。 我：爸爸，父亲节快乐。这些日子，我在想，有你们当我的爸妈，我真的很幸运和幸福。因为为人父母真的很不容易，不但要对孩子负责任，还要管他长大成人和供书教学。而你们却管了我们三个，都那么出色，还能满足我们时不时突然蹦出来的过分要求，真的很佩服你们。也想跟你们说声，我爱你们！
爸爸：谢谢！你懂事了。大个女了。真高兴。
我：哈哈，当然！不过我还会继续有过分的要求哦。。。
爸爸：我就知道：天下没有白吃的午餐。说吧：啥事？
我：暂时没有，哈哈！不过我会保留这个权利。。。
爸爸：过期作废。哈哈。。。
我：好吧，哪一天我不是你的女儿了就过期了。。。
爸爸：狡猾。。。
OUR PROMISE WILL LAST FOREVER, RIGHT? DAD... 4/17/2008 妈妈日光灯熄灭了。没事，不用
挂钟停了。没事，用手表
煤气没了。没事，用妈妈房间的电热水器
饭桌铺满一寸厚的灰尘。没事，不坐
冰箱塞满零食。不用出去，图个方便
家里到处一片狼藉。没事，我能忍受，等妈妈回来收拾
这是只有我在家里的特征
日光灯修好了，重见天日
挂钟弄好了，是早是晚一目了然
煤气换好了，可以享受猛水沐浴
饭桌一尘不染，可以放心摆下PP
冰箱塞满水果和蔬菜，营养均衡丰富
家里里里外外干干净净、井井有条，这才像人住的地方，舒服
这是有我妈妈在家里的特征
妈妈总能把家里收拾得如此舒适
从小我就依赖惯了
所以，当自己出来工作，妈妈回老家陪爸爸，家里只剩自己的时候，我的惯性依然没能摆脱
家里的大小事情，我总会不予理会
总觉得会有人搞定，会work out
想依赖那一年不回来几次的妈妈
妈妈这次回来，看到以上特征的家，说，你住的地方比没人住更邋遢
我说，是吗？至少我房间还有点人气吧，哈哈
我也有打扫，不过很随心所欲
家里就我一个，我回来当然干脆进房间了，哪里顾得了其他地方
我就觉得，家里没个女人真的不行，都不成家了
没人搞卫生，没人煮饭，没人帮你收拾东西，没人陪你说话，没人看到你的情绪，没人等你回家
所以说，还是男人好，可以娶个女人回来依靠，安安心心踏踏实实地过家庭生活
而我呢？
妈妈明天就回家了
我只能回归没人管的状态，邋遢和食无定时是我的两大特征。
妈妈，有你在的家真的才算个家
尽管你没出去工作赚钱，经常被爸爸以这点来嘲笑你
但要打理这头家和照顾我们三个，这个功夫恐怕比出去赚钱更吃力，所花的心思就更不用说
所以我经常觉得，妈妈你是最棒的，你撑起了半边
3/30/2008 Words of the photosPhoto1: my dear families...This is my papa's last photo with us...I love him
Photo2: He was very satisfied to see my brothers' gfs...He told me in my dream that he was very happy that so many families were with him...
Photo3: I still remember the last few days I spent taking care of him...He was sick, but he was very tough, and lovely, when I talked with him, he made funny face to me. He loved the clothes I bought for him. Even it was very cold that day. He insisted to wear them for photos. This was the first time I bought clothes for him, and also the last time...
Photo4: I never thought that he would leave us so soon...But if he was happy there, I would let him go...Papa,you will long live in my heart...We will miss you forever...I am lisi, can you hear me? |
|
|
